I am suffering from unrequited love. I love someone who doesn't love me back and never will. At least it seems this is the case. I keep hoping it will change when I lose weight, but again, I can't do accomplish this superhuman feat. My heart is broken when I think about how he doesn't care, and he's one of my best friends so I can't just ignore him. I know I have to lose weight for myself, but it still hurts to think about him eventually finding someone else. I don't know necessarily that he is even right for me and I've never told him how I feel, but I just feel rejected already. Of course he couldn't like me - I'm too ugly, too much of a failure, blah blah.
Today was kind of a good day in that I again almost binged on Chinese buffet just because I want it so badly, but I decided against it. I wanted to go but I felt guilty about spending the money, since I'm really broke lately, plus I was feeling bad after again eating sugar cookies at the office. Plus I had peanut M&Ms - chocolate-covered crack balls. I had another frozen meal and some salad for dindin.
I didn't exercise today. I feel like a blob. Oh and I ate a large sandwich at Quiznos. I am a blob!
Check out this blog I found - this chick and I have the same birthday. http://mixedup.diaryland.com/
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