amazing what one little pill can do...

well four of them anyway.

After this terrible weekend of out of control eating, I took Prozac again for the first time in a week or so, full dose. Within 24 hours everything was "normal" - I had no desire to binge or stuff myself with food. Out of habit I ate much but it didn't quite work in that it wasn't that exciting. There was no binge high, and it was like what is the point of ever doing this?

I say everything was "normal" in quotes because it was so dramatically different than the previous few days... All I wanted to doing was binge on food and play with myself! Hah! But almost overnight I had no interest. I only had kind of an anxious feeling because I felt like I didn't have anything to do.

I've probably explained this all before but Prozac doesn't last long term for me. It stops working for me after awhile... the term the doctor told me is Prozac Poopout. It will just stop working - that is why I'm at the maximum dose because now the minimum amount has no effect whatsoever. After it stops working, to get the full effect again I have to stop taking it for awhile, let it leave my system and then start again. And it works. Dramatically. It's basically a cure, I don't know how else I could explain how drastically it changed my desires and behaviors. Obviously the food obsession and horniness are serotonin related and the Prozac stops both. This has to prove it is a medical problem with my brain, if a pill changes it.

What am I supposed to do?

can't stop eating, what else is new

I can't stop eating... I'm constantly hungry.

I think I will soon be 300 lbs. Someone shoot me (or harpoon me).

Of course I haven't been taking the Prozac to control the hunger. I hate this disease or disorder or whatever you want to call it.

this shit blows

Oh wait, there is something new under the sun. Well not really... I drank tonight and last night! I usually never drink. I don't really like it. Doesn't do much for me. But last night and tonight I purposely drank more to get drunk. I was just thinking how socially acceptable it is to be an alcoholic. Well not acceptable but how common versus people with eating disorders. Aren't they kind of the same?