1, 2, 3 - Hooray for me!

Guess what guys... I'm doing pretty well! I have gotten into a good schedule and am going to bed and waking up early.

I feel good about myself... I figured out the only way to stop the bulimia cycle is to stop it COMPLETELY. You can't stop halfway.

I started the "Fat Smash" diet by the doctor on Celebrity Fit Club. It is pretty good. I'm eating small meals pretty often. After a week I've lost about 5 lbs. I haven't had the urge to binge at all. Well I have, but I didn't do it. I just eat a small amount of something else instead. Kellogg's Special K with chocolate bits is AWESOME for dealing with evening urges.

The only problem is my back. It is killing me again. I am working out through the pain but I don't see the point of laying around and being sedentary. It keeps spasming on me though. I'll see the doctor next week about it. Give me some painkillers!

Posting again

I'm doing OK. I started over, basically. I'm feeling calmer and taking the Prozac regularly. Whenever I go off it I start to binge. Gee, what a coincidence!

I started working out again - cardio and weight machines - but my back started bothering me immediately. So I replaced the weight machines with back exercises and have still be doing cardio. My back is still bad but I bought these heat patches and they are AWESOME! My back gets so stiff I can't move but with the heat it's like the stiffness melts away. They actually get too hot but it's OK.

I wanted to try running and I could only run for a minute and a half before I had to stop. The machine even gave me a message - "running is not recommended at your weight." Hah! Insulted by a machine! Well, I weigh 220 lbs. Well gotta start somewhere.

love to everyone.