This is the real term they use for when Prozac suddenly and mysteriously stops working for a patient, and what I'm going through right now. It just stopped working for no reason except it wanted to. I know it's not working because not only am I constantly hungry, I do feel depressed and lethargic, AND horny as hell! (If anyone has had the same experience as I with antidepressants, you'll know feeling randy is not a common occurrence when you're popping the happy pills.)
So my back injury... I think it's related. I read that people with depression are more likely to have back problems, and that the depression lowers your pain inhibitors or something so you are feeling the pain more than another person. I actually have an excuse not to exercise - my doctor said to even avoid walking as much as possible. Right now my best friend is the heating pad. Aaaah relief...
But still the bulimia continues. Every night I swear it's over.... but then the next day I'll be off on some food hunt, my mind blocking out that promise to stop. If some brain cell tries to stand up and think "hey hello you know you don't want to do this" the other brain cells jump on it and kick it until it dies. Those brain cells must be bigger and stronger and meaner because they always make that little thought go away quickly and easily.
By the way my appetite is more proof that the Prozac isn't working... Not only am I hungry but I have CRAVINGS like you wouldn't believe. In the past two weeks I've had to hunt down (not in any particular order) pancakes and french toast (twice), Thai food, Indian food (that was tonight) and movie theater hot dogs -- all after dreaming about them for days. What the fuck, brain?!
Anyway in my remorseful moments I've been making some efforts... First I found out that there is a really good treatment center about two hours from here, that happens to be on my PPO provider's network! Yay! I called them and they have a waiting list that goes into next year. Awww.
My next idea was a day treatment plan - I did that once five years ago for about a month (before I left like a fucktard, thinking I was cured). There is one offered at a hospital about 30 min away. I called and asked if they offered support for eating disorders and they said yes. Yay! Wow, I was so excited. I went there and met with their intake person. She said that, contrary to what I was told on the phone, they don't really specialize with eating disorders but are mostly for people who are suffering from depression and/or substance abuse, and the average stay is about a week. Not only that, no food is provided. And not only THAT, but my insurance only pays for 60% of it and it's almost $300 a day!!!! Without meals and only going to 3:30...
So today I called and left a message for a psychologist in my town who specializes in ED. She used to work at the university health center before she went into private practice... (ca-ching) I had called her before like two years ago and found out she didn't take insurance and she did not operate on a sliding scale (ca-ching, ca-ching!) But now I think I will have to come up with the money somehow, because I am running out of options. I am killing myself with food - I am up to 215 people!!!!!!!!!! Help me.
God why can't I cure myself??? It would be so cheap!!!!!!
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Girl, its time to switch meds!!! If you can find a psychiatrist who has worked with ed's (I don't always trust general hmo docs who prescribe the newest med) or a psy. Nurse Prac., ask about Cymbalta or Effexor for sure. I like how they both activate norepenepherine and serotonin, unlike other SSRI's. You're lucky prozac worked so long for you. It really made me crazy! I think Topamax has helped too, and w the hunger, although my bingeing isn't really hunger related. Even if a medicine made you less hungry, you still have to wonder if it's the habit that keeps you seeking more food.
Don't give up on your search for a therapist! I know they have OA mtg's everywhere, so you could try that too. I actually went to one this week, you might check it out and OA is free.
You're right, it sucks so much that part of our brain is sick of it and wants to stop. Then the "stronger" part takes over and goes in search of binge foods we don't need! Don't you ever just want to have someone go in and "fix" your brain or get part of a new one? So frustrating....
Hang in there and keep researching your options!
Hey darling, we're trying to get out of it as well. One of us are on anti depressives as well. Prozac doesn't really work for everyone, we agree with Beth, it's time to switch meds!
It takes so much time an energy to find a good therapist, I really hope you find one!
Hey girl. I am totally going through this too, although I have opted not to use drugs. I tried Lexapro awhile ago, but it f'ed me up. I'm almost 27, and have been a bulimic/ana for 8 years now. I don't know how to stop, even after therapy, so I feel your pain. Every day I say, no way, but after my fiance leaves for work, I get right to it. I am crazy desperate for help, and can't seem to make it through one day without B/P! Good luck, and try to find a therapist.
It takes about a month before it really starts benefiting you…and then it may serves as a lifesaver. Some of the side effects of Prozac include Abnormal dreams; decreased sexual desire or ability, anxiety.
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