I've come to realize recently that I'm not taking the Prozac as consistently as I should be. I usually take it like every other day and not the same time every day. So I've recommitted to taking it every night. However I was chatting with Beth (who kicks ass by the way) and she was telling me about Cymbalta... so I googled Cymbalta and bulimia and found this super awesome site:Remedy Find: Bulimia
Everybody go on there and talk about what works for you and what doesn't work for you! We need to help each other out with our first hand experiences because let's face it, what the doctors do is pretty much trial and error.
I did a real work out today at the gym for the first time in a long time... 20 min on the eliptical machine. Awesome! Then I came home and cleaned. Awesome! I ate a healthy and satisfying dinner. Awesome! Then I cooked about 100 lbs of this macaroni, chili and spaghetti sauce concoction. I suck at life! Seriously lately it's like I cannot feel full until I've binged and purged repeatedly. The more I try to get better, the worse I get. Maybe it's like quicksand... struggle and you sink faster, stop struggling and you'll float to the surface.
For my birthday, I would like an all-expense paid stay at a treatment facility. I wonder if they have ones where you can bring your pets? They should make a Carnival cruise ship for ED recovery. You don't get off the boat until you're better. That would kick ass.
Anyway I'm thinking I'm going to look into Cymbalta. The thing about Prozac is that it works great at first and then it stops working. I don't understand this. Is Cymbalta better? Ugh a new medication... I feel like such a freak.
Thanks for the supportive messages... it means so much to me.
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Hey~ I've been reading your blog lately. That's so funny what you said about the cruise ship thing. Anyway, I've been on and off Prozac since i was 13. I think prozac helped me get over anorexia and then I went off it and had little bit of a relapse. So Prozac definitly has helped me but I don't know if different medicine works better for different eating disorders. Keep up the work on your recovery though! You can do it!!!!!
Mandy I have been on Cymbalta for a while now and it really helps me and I have been on most things But I am really getting what I need from Cymbalta I take it in the ma=orning and at night
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Even if the Prozac isn't working its best, hopefully you will feel the boost from working out, so keep doing it. It really is a great feeling right after you finish a workout! I'm still feeling the effects of going down on the Effexor (long, strange dreams that drain my sleep) so I'm looking forward to Cymbalta. That website was helpful too, thanks! Oh, and remember, you are not alone on your "I Love Food" boat, unfortunately. Take care.
not sure where you live, but Avalon Hills in Logan, Utah, saved my life, and helped me start living a life that i actually wanted to continue. they just opened an adult center - i was at the adolescent center - and i'll shamelessly plaster it here: http://avalonhills.org/facilities/adult-facility.html
Are you seeing a therapist? a good e.d. therapist with whom you connect well can be almost as effective and comforting and change-facilitating (i need better adjectives, but you know what i mean) as residential treatment. your desire to recover puts you leaps and bounds ahead on the road to recovery.
You've got to take the Prozac faithfully if it's going to work. And that doesn't mean that it will. I started out with Zoloft (I was nursing), but it wasn't working well for me. I really like my Prozac, but that was very good evidence to me that not all antidepressents work the same in all bodies.
Hang in there.
Hi Mandy! I've missed you!
I totally agree with the cruise thing - and we definitely would all need to bring our pets or borrow one for the duration! My baby has taught me so much about forgiveness, unconditional love, acceptance, living life only to find joy and happiness, and how it's totally ok to admit that all you want to do in life is eat, sleep, run around chasing little critters, and snuggling in someone's lap 24/7!
Different medicines work for different people. I hated Prozac cuz I couldn't stay awake and it did nothing for my panic. On the other hand, I love Citalopram (generic for Celexa). It totally conquered my panic attacks and gives me energy which is a great help in getting things done so you can feel good about yourself at the end of the day. My sister loved a Welbutrin and Lexapro combo. Of course, she killed herself - but she was so much happier and productive and peaceful right up until the end . . . ? Who knows?
I'm recovered, and I still like my Citalopram. I see no reason to quit it.
I also wanted to say you should read my post from last night. I talk about why it's just not possible to recover without learning more. You can't fix a problem with the same mind that created it. And, keeping your attention on the thing you most hate about yourself will only reinforce it.
It's like focusing on an itch but trying really hard not to scratch it - it will only make you crazy until you can't take it anymore and just scratch the hell out of it.
I have been suffering with bulimia for a long time and I had gone on Cymbalta. It completely got rid of all that anxiety with food and my high stress eating freak outs. I literally stopped binging entirely and I was eating very healthy and I actually lost some additional weight while I was taking it. I maintained a healthy weight and I was feeling amazing and so I went off it thinking that was confident enough and didn't need it anymore. After a year of being off it I recently relapsed because I gained weight and all the food anxiety came back and I couldn't handle it. As of today I'm back on Cymbalta and I'm looking foward to getting over this again. Bulimia is such a horrible addiction and so hard to get through. Of all the other treatments I have tried, Cymbalta was honestly the one that has helped me through it. Good luck!
Hi- just wanted to let you know that I am pretty much cured from my 11 year struggle with bulimia. What worked for me was a mixture of 60mg cymbalta and 100mg topamax combined with weekly therapy. I did gain weight, but I was a severely underweight bulimic. Now although I am FAT compared to what I was I am still in the low end of a healthy weight. My dr. did eventually take me off the cymbalta because it causes liver damage when you drink on it and I'm pretty much an alcoholic too. However, after 2 years on that combo of drugs I am b/p free even without the meds. Now I am trying to deal with the alcohol thing...
There is hope. Good luck!
Maybe it is time to do more research on herbal remedies, they can do much more good than the traditional medicines, for example I read that there are better herbal remedies for sexual affections than to just buy viagra and take it.
For those in need of treatment. I recommend this bulimia treatment center .
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