I started school this past week.... I think it will be a good semester. I am really excited about my classes because they are pretty interesting. I've still been compulsively bingeing/purging. I am so fat, 205. I feel terrible. I look like such a slob, always wearing t-shirts and sweats. I was walking across campus this morning and I just felt terrible about myself. As in, don't I have any pride in my appearance? In taking care of myself? I hope the weather will cool down soon and I'll feel like going for walks at night. I always do my best thinking and head-clearing when I walk. It's been so hot, like 95 degrees at 11:00 p.m.
Tonight I went to see a great movie, Little Miss Sunshine. It was so simple and yet so funny and uplifting... Everybody go see it!
I will post again soon... more deep thoughts from Jack Mandy.
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Hey Mandy,
Glad to hear you're feeling inspired about your classes!
Funny, J and I thought about going to see Little Miss Sunshine tonight. I'd heard it was good, and now, after what you said, I want to see it even more! Tonight, though, after going out for sushi, we opted for curling up on our couch watching "Alias." It's so suspenseful! There are some dark parts I don't like to watch, but I got hooked anyways!
I know what you mean about walks. Whenever I have a lot on my mind or am feeling down on myself, going out to walk helps me so much to clear my head!
Hope you have a great weekend, and have fun getting organized for all your classes! I always loved the start of a new school year/new semester. Especially in the fall. This is my first fall not going back to school. Weird...
big hug and lots of love!
Em
walking is real therapeutic, and i find it helps when i just had an argument and about to binge/purge. unfortunately, i shoot myself in the feet sometimes when i just get so mad i run out of the house in running shoes... only to binge at the convenience store, bleh
Hey there :)
My name is Dom :) I was wondering if you could help me :) I do also have bulimia... I am trying to get better too. I have decided to make my senior thesis about bulimia - I am hoping for some sort of recovery by talking to others. Since I am a design student, my project will consist from a book filled with people's testimonials "what have bulimia made me do..." Well I am talking from my own experience - I have pretend that I got drank during dinner on a date so I would have a valid excuse to throw up... If you could help me and share some of your experiences I would really appreciate.
I here your fat pain LOUD AND CLEAR!!!! I have recently gained 30 pounds and have lost all hope in dieting. I have recently turned to laxatives as my main source. I keep trying to purge but just can't seem to get the nack of it. I'd love to here from you via email so we can chat.
One 175 pound girl here in Canada
Deb
debbie.ingram@sympatico.ca
Hope we can share thoughts.
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