tomorrow is my appt with the nutritionist... I hope meeting with her will help, even though I've met with plenty of nutrionists before.I just got a suggestion to look at OA (Overeaters Anonymous)... I looked it up and there are a few meetings in my area. I guess I can try it though I don't know if I believe in the whole 12-step concept. However I think I can use all the help I can get... it seems like the more I want to change, the more I resist all my efforts to change. It's driving me insane.
I've been watching the X-Files on TNT for the past three hours. I should go to bed but there's another yet one on... I want to be Mrs. Mulder. Did you guys know Chris Carter wrote the B.R.A.T. Patrol back in the day? I guess I'm still preoccupied... with 1985.
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Hi there. Thanks for having the strength to write about all that consumes you.
I too thought that the 12 steps would not apply to me and my situation. However, I was sooooo tired of my way not working. I would fight this battle with food, beat it for a while, then I'd fall in battle. It studied me and was (and is) bigger than me. It did not get better, only worse until I realized I had to surrender.
All I had was an ounch of willingness to walk into the rooms of OA. I heard people like me and there was a solution that was different than my own. I discovered that I was going about this the wrong way and I did not have to do this alone. This is my experience, I had to find it as you are doing now -- discovering your own journey.
I hope that you discover something that works for you. You deserve freedom from this. The polution of the obsession of food can kill us. Sure we are living, but it true freedom to be Alive!
Thank you for posting. I really pray that you will find freedom from this obsession. You are beautiful you know, but you have to see that.
i wonder if you ended up trying OA - i guess i'll find out as i keep reading. i went to one meeting once, and i just couldn't swallow the god-speak. i'm not religious - mainly because i believe if there was a "god," things wouldn't be like this...there's got to be a better - and free - support network out there for people suffering through this on their own.
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