I've been doing well lately with eating, thanks to the Prozac. However I haven't been exercising over the past few weeks because my left foot has really been hurting... well guess what - it's fractured!!!!
I didn't do anything to it either except walk on it a lot. Actually my right foot starting hurting a lot, and so I was limping a lot onto my left foot, and then my left foot really starting hurting. It swelled up so I got it x-rayed and it's a clean fracture. So now I am limping again on my right foot and it's really hurting again too! Can you imagine if I have two broken feet?
And it's all because I'm so overweight. I'm sure of it. What else would cause it? It makes me so furious. I'm stuck at this weight. How am I supposed to exercise now?
I am almost crying writing this and I almost never cry, especially on the Prozac. This situation is just becoming hopeless. I need weight loss surgery and I know it would be successful, but my insurance refuses to pay for it and I don't have money either.
I don't know what to do.
8 comments:
HI Mandy,
I feel your pain - really. I am 30 as well and have been battleing this for 7 years now. Maybe we can help each other....
thank god for your blog. seriously. i started off very restrictive with food but "discovered" how much easier it was to stuff your face and throw up than actually put some effort into a diet. God i could just scream when i think of the HOURS and DAYS and YEARS that i have WASTED on this selfish, tortuous, wasteful disease. i want to stop. i'm on step one, but i really want to stop. this blog helped me type this out, more than anything ive done to admit my problems in years.
hey Im reading all this
And now I'm really scared
I'm 16 and I've been bulimic for a year and a half... and this looks like my future.
I dont know how to get over this..
OKK so far this is reall depressing
If it helps 200 isnt that much
I know people who have come down to 130 from 200...
Within the past 2 months I've lost 15 pounds on a diet. You should follow an actual diet, I was on nutrisystem. The meals were really high protein and they helped curb cravings. God this sounds like a commercial. Anyhow I found that it was designed really well, and it helped fix my erratic eating behaviors. I think anything like that could help you out. Although, you may have already tried. This is just what's helping me at the moment, I slip up alot, but at least I'm getting somewhere. Oh and I'm keeping myself distracted and am inthe process of finding different ways to validate myself. Good luck, I'm going to keep reading your blog.
Much love,
thefatsister
Hi Mandy, I hope you can find a solution and get back on track soon. Please keep updating. I am thinking about you!
wow. this is a lot to deal with. more than anything, you have to let your body heal. i imagine it feels like someone's playing a cruel trick on you, because all you want to do is get active, but you can't right now. in the meantime, it sounds like the prozac is helping with food cravings -- that's great! you are taking steps, one at a time, at your own pace. sending you well wishes.
Hey Mandy,
I feel your pain. Sometimes I get so disgusted and frustrated and I grab the fat around my stomach so hard it turns red. How long will you be out of action for with a fractured foot? Would swimming be out of the question? Don't be sad, you are a beautiful woman. You don't look fat at all, and even if you were it doesn't change who you are. I'm bulimic too, but sometimes I wish I could put things in to perspective. Really, why do we have such a fear of being fat...?
Hang in there. I've been dealing w/bulimia for 15 years and am have recently gone back for help at the Eating Disorder Clinic. I have 2 kids 5 and 7 and decided that I can't go on. They need a mom that is going to be there for them completely. It has been difficult learning how to deal w/ my emotions other than by stuffing my face and throwing up. It's like I have to learn who I am and what I like 'cause I really don't know. I've found a lot of comfort in my therapy sessions w/psychiatris...maybe that would be something to consider.
My dr. has talked about putting me on prozac recently because it's supposed to help with "bulimia" but i don't really want the help yet, i guess.
You ever wanna talk..i'm here.
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