Why do I think the Lap-Band will take all my problems away? I guess I am tired of being hungry all the time.
I really am hungry all the time. Sometimes I can't sleep at night because my stomach hurts so much from the hunger. That can't be normal. It's like the fatter I get, the more my body needs to eat to feed each fat cell. Fuck you fat cells.
My foot is better in the boot. It doesn't hurt at all no matter how much I walk. Without it I can't walk without limping. It's a stress fracture by the way and not a clean break like the urgent care doctor said. I guess I will start riding the bike again.
I am a bit tipsy. I had two alcoholic drinks tonight with friends. Drinking makes me sad. What is that they say, it is heartbreaking to love so someone you can't be with who is far from you, but even more heartbreaking to love someone right next to you that you can't be with? Well if they don't say that, they should say something like that because it's true.
nite nite
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Yesterday after b/p like 4 times I was exhausted and bored. Had nothing to do so I googled "bulima blog" and found yours. I read every post and my God, can I relate to what you’re writing about! I have been b/p since the age of 18 and now I am 22, still the struggle continues.. In my mind there’s nothing that will open as many doors in life as being thin and good looking; happiness, attention from men, being offered jobs I wouldn’t dream of while fat, the list goes on and on...
Anyway I wanted to say that from what ive read in your blog, if find you strong, smart, expressive, witty and wonderful. Keep your head up! Love from a 22 year old bulimic from the land of meatballs - Sweden
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I really hope you can get your surgery or find a solution to your problem. Do you think the hunger is from not getting the right nutrients? Maybe you are eating empty calories.
You will find the right guy, but you have to be happy with yourself first. I know you have heard that before. I'm not happy with myself either, so we both need to work on that.
mandy , try harder . i am sure you will gt away from this. best of luck.
I forget if I already commented - saw your blog a while ago. Don't go for lap band or other gimmicks. I was bulimarexic for 13 years and am recovered. It is possible! Get help! It's there for the taking. Chin up! - Martha
p.s. My blog is on blogger.com or the complete version: www.recoveredbulimic.wordpress.com
Maybe you'll find something helpful.
sucky i just started puking when i was sick and now i cant stop
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