Tuesday, January 16, 2007

when it's time to change, you've got to rearrange...

...move your heart to what you're gonna be!

I'm thinking I need to change this blog a bit. I feel like I've moved past the day-to-day bulimia struggle and my new efforts are on healing my body through nutrition and fitness. I think I need a new design for this site.

Of course I'm still not cured, but I feel much different. All my slipups are caused by not eating or eating processed foods. By the way I also tried soda for the first time since Christmas - I could not even finish a small glass! It tasted like poisoned syrup.

Speaking of nasty, last week I tried to do the apple juice fast again. I did three days of only apple juice but each day I had a bowl of chicken noodle soup for dinner because I was starving. Anyway, when it came time to drink the oil on the third night, I couldn't do it! I started drinking it and immediately threw it up! I think it reminded me of how disgusting I felt after I drank it last time. Luckily I was in the kitchen and next to the sink. I guess the fast is a one-time thing because I'm sure I can never get pure olive oil down again. Yuck!

My next thought is to do a small intestine cleanse. I read about this product, Okra-Pepsin-E3, and how it cleans the junk stuck to your intestinal walls that may be preventing nutrients from being absorbed.

Here is a link to the article: Cleansing The Small Intestine

Hope you're all welling!

love
Mandy

2 comments:

Faith said...

I hate myself coz i've been bulimic for four years now. It started when i was 16, i was on a diet for 6 months, i was starving myself, i used to eat one plate of salad each day, and then the bing/purge cycle started & i don't think it will ever end. Bulimia is destroying me.. My mom stopped talking to me completely & my husband divorced me after 9 months of marriage all bcoz of bulimia. I've lost all myself confedence. Sometimes, i really wish i can just drop dead.. I need help.

Feisty Frida said...

Hey Mandy, wow you're doing awesome!!! You've come so far my friend, keep up the great work!!

Frida