Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Guess who's back (back again)

I can't believe I haven't posted in 2 months. Yikes.

Well I've really been struggling. Time is flying by and I've been getting fatter and fatter. Life seemed hopeless.

So I decided to give the lap-band a second thought and I'm going to do it, even though I have to pay on my own ($15,000, which I have to borrow from my boss). First I will do a few months of therapy.

I've thought about this for a long time, in depth. I know it will help me because it will help me feel full. I know that for whatever reason, my stomach is signaling my brain that it is not full, and my brain is signaling me to eat.

I know this will be a controversial decision around here but this is what I'm planning to do. Everything else I have tried has not worked.

6 comments:

Beth said...

Are you scarred? Can you get your bulimia under control before then? I really hope you're making the right decision, but hopefully you know what's best for you!

Tash said...

I'm glad to hear that you are going to therapy before getting it immediately. Have you talked to your doctor about it in depth and do the lap band people know of your eating disorder? I just wonder if the ED would still be there even if you have one fitted. I hope that whatever you do it works out for you. We'll be here no matter what decision you take and how it turns out.

Soledad said...

Hey Mandy,

I am here for you and I do not judge you at all! You will make the best decision for you. Good for you for doing therapy, that is the tricky part.
xo

Sole

Esperanza Molinar said...

Hey Chica.

How you doing???

xo
Sole

Ziortza Beristain said...

Dear Mandy,
I really understand how you are feeling. Hope you are better now. You are stronger than you think.

A-List said...

Wow- I didn't think about the band...You're brave!