Monday, October 20, 2008

do you have to hit rock bottom before you get better?

It seems like I every time I hit "rock bottom," I bounce. I vow to get better and I have a surge of improvement, only to eventually fall back on my crappy habits.

I am actually doing better for real. You know, I have been making my bed every day. It seems like such a small thing but it is a major step for a slob like me.

I need to go back on the Ambien ASAP. I stopped taking it for a few weeks when I jarred my back and got a refill on the hydrocodone. They recommended not mixing those so I had to choose and went with the pain-free insomnia.

I am still working toward the Lap Band.... I'm praying I can do it this fall. I am so big but looking forward to the Lap Band keeps me from being depressed.

lots o' love

3 comments:

Extravađajna said...

Yes, it is necessarily to go to the bottom of it all and then start making a progress. And it can happen all over again. And again. And every time you fall, there is a chance you will stay on your foot someday, too. But I HATE these ups and downs. I feel like I am not changing a thing. That sucks A BIG TIME.

What's Wrong With Me? said...

This is a very good question. I think I hit a rock bottom definitely, before I "improved"....ie: destroyed my body, and other crap...I have been bulimic since age 18-- so that's 12 years ago....I worry I will never be better. I take comfort in the fact though, that I don't think I could ever get as bad as I was 7 or 8 years ago

will said...

I wouldn't say so. If you ever want to change something major, you usually need to make a lifestyle change. The same thing happened to me when I decided to hit the gym hard and have been going for 3 years now.

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