what is the deal

I'm growing up. I've made a few smart decisions this week and suddenly I feel much older and wiser.

it's soooo late, I can barely keep my eyes open or think straight, but I just feel so positive and wanted to post. My life is pretty good if I let it be.

I am realizing that the things I do because they are easy - procrastinate, be a slob, avoid studying or paying bills, not to mention binge and purge - are no longer "working" for me. I say "working" because they are self-destructive habits that I subconsciously employ for some purpose. Well they are no longer serving their purpose. Fuckers.

time to catch some zzzzs. I don't know why but I feel lucky, despite my problems. I am really pretty cool.